20 February, 2008 | Leave a Comment
Tonight on the bus ride home from work I cried a little bit. I think it was from exhaustion, mostly. I’m still not entirely well but I’ve had to teach a lot of hours this week. I’m tired. I’m not sure where I’ll find the energy to do it all again tomorrow. In general I’m not entirely happy right now anyway. That’s just the way it is, like it or not. So all of this added up to a teary moment on a packed bus. While looking out the window at the whirl of pedestrians and red traffic lights of Holborn, I wouldn’t have thought it was possible to feel entirely alone in the world. That’s how I felt, then, at least for that moment.
This weekend I am going to Paris. Saturday, Sunday, Monday. Even if I don’t feel well enough to go, I’m going. I splurged on the ticket. I need to feel inspired, I need to feel pleasure — the kind of sensual pleasure that only Paris can provide. Last year at this time I was living there, trying to sort myself out, trying to pull myself up from the lowest of the low. I’m craving a visit to Paris right now. Or perhaps, maybe, what I’m really craving is for something to
wake me up.
Anglofille said @ 8:19 pm | personal |
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Silvana Says:
February 21st, 2008 at 2:47 amI am so sorry to hear you’re feeling a bit down and out. It definitely sounds like a case of the winter blahs. I’m feeling it here in Toronto too. Nothing that a little wine and chocolate can’t cure. And hey, you’re going to be in Paris, so that is a definite pick-me-up. I’m jealous!! I think that if I were sad in Paris I’d go to Le Bon Marche…it’s the happiest place on earth as far as I’m concerned. Give it a try and see what happens.
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Hmmm. Must be going around. I cried a little bit in my car today. Sending you good thoughts. Have a swell trip. I hope it brings the inspiration you seek - I can’t imagine it won’t!
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Anglo, It’s a pity ! Anyway, you have my mail. So, it’s up to you
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Silvana: The Bon Marché! I remember that being a really cool store. Perhaps I will stop by. Thanks for the warm wishes!
Nikoline: Thank you! I’m sorry you’re feeling down too. This time of year is difficult. Take care of yourself. I will report back on what happens in Paris.
Aldor: Thank you. I’m okay, so don’t worry. I’m looking forward to being in Paris - I hope the weather will be nice?!
